My...Brain...Bubbles...

i'm doing this cuz they wanted me too.

2009-06-20T23:46:00.000-07:00

List of what i have left to do:
revise, econs essay part(b), revise, abt 40 maths qn's, chem tutorial, revise, bio mindmap, revise, GP compre, revise ETC.
life's been treating me okay? I'm not sure but i really wanna establish a close relationship with Him cuz i noe i'll realli need it when i'm gonna fall apart next term again... thank God, realli, for the frenz i have and their unwavering faith in me. I LOVE U GUYS... i realli do;D
i gtg eat lunch at Ajisen now... will continue, if ever, i hav the time...

tired eyes...

2009-01-10T05:31:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired "eyes that fall ever-so-often"
And everything is gonna begin again... And so the cycle rotates...
No, i'm not ready. Like i never was...
So i paid with tears and more of what's dear of me... But i neglect the rest...
The rest that have the courage to pay so much more " i can't afford to lose my sanity"
When despair engulfs me... i just... i just...
yes, i wallow... and the mind wanders to boundaries of doubt and worry.
and yes, once again tears don't defy gravity...
But do cast your anxieties onto Him, For He cares...

procrastination, lack of discipline...
what i possess and will, Ultimately, lead me to failure.

Now... 2009

2009-01-07T05:49:00.000-08:00

2,0,0,9... new resolutions. what's your's???
i betcha last year's resolutions weren't even fufilled...
2009 spells... so why bother making new ones???
Worry,
Anxiety, "because tears NEVER defy gravity."
Stress,
Friendship, "...family that you choose"
New Found Experiences.
2,0,0,8 i fell... It was air... for a while...
But i fell on new nets that caught me.
these nets are smaller then those that i already had but couldn't cast.
These new nets...
drink starbucks... are growing... sponge my tears... speak like me...
And yes, I'm thankful, Lord...
for the nets (existing and growing) you weave and bless me with.
for the LAST net weaved with blood "family"

New...

2009-01-07T05:46:00.000-08:00

SO i'm gonna totally change my blog except the skin and some stuff... i thought i'd work with this existing blog...

I'm gonna change the way i blog too... yea.. it starts now...

What's been going on...

2008-06-19T02:25:00.000-07:00

what's been going on??? lot'sa stuff, but i dun realli noe the meaning why. everyday passes as fast as a flame goes off. i dunno if i've been touch with my life... i've sacrificed so many things with my decision. time is now worth of a million and wat's worse, i noe i've been fadin from my frenz. i dun realli have lot'sa frenz in JC. at least we're nt close yet and sometimes, i feel lyk things will neva be the same. i can't find the same frenz anymore cuz they're one in a million. i realli needed to spend this 5 mins to juz blurt it all out... the meaning of life keeps slipping from my mind. what keep me going? many thanx to my family and God. but things are still dull now and then. i see more books then i do of ppl... my time and life is now planned to every minute since i realised the essence of time. no, i cannot afford to lose time. no, i cannot afford to lose my frenz. i cannot afford to lose me... the price for the future maybe the present and i'm not willing to give it up. and yes, i noe i can't have the best of both world's but i hope tryin is enough for wat its worth.

always a failure.

2007-09-17T23:23:00.000-07:00

today, we got results back. i got b4 for bio, b3 for science but i failed emaths and amaths. amaths is lyk a F9 and a D7 for emaths... i'm an idiot. i dunno wat else to do. i realli didn't wanna fail emaths. i practiced! pink booklet, TYS papers... i went for ms. nathan's amaths lesson and maths tuition... it neva seems enuf. this time, ms. nathan's gonna cm up wif smth else to tell my mum. maybe its simply i'm stupid or i'm nt listening or i'm not understanding her... then my family will reprimand me, my uncles and aunts will tell me to work harder. i've never been good. and its neva enuf. i dun go out often, i dun use the computer everyday, i don't watch TV everyday. the problem is still me. my dad's gonna say i'm gonna fry chao kway teow for a living. after all the effort, i'm shit. shit.

why is it tat they hav to play Jenny's video tat day??? why is it tat i feel smth's chokin my neck and i can't breathe??? why is it crying has become so effortless??? suddenly, i can go wifout lunch. this abilities are good for me... the help me overcome my stupidity. i dunno how i'm gonna survive... everyone else is better. everyone else do less. everyone else is smarter.

a story... pls COMMENT.

2007-09-05T03:03:00.000-07:00

Carefully, she lays the baby in the cot. blue eyed and drooling, he lifts his hand towards the looming figure above his safe haven. then, the familiar shadow disppears and the wooden door closes shut. he turns his head and wonders about his next feeding of milk. with this, he eyelids lowers and sucking his thumb, he drifts to sleep.

she walks to the kitchen and stares blankly. swiftly, she picks up the metal and heads for the bathroom. with a twist of her neck, she glimpsed at the clock. the minute hand has long been broken, but what's the difference if hours and minutes don't matter to you, she wondered.

with soft steps, she crept up the stairs, her mind whirling and numb. the bathroom door creaked at the lightest push and she entered. a push and a pull, her night gown flowed to the floor tiles. barely making a sound, her feet stepped into the cool tub, grime growing along its edges.

fingers grasping the cold handle and with a movement on her arm, her breath caught. brown eyed and smiling, she gazed up above. dust on the tiles swam in the thick, warm rippling pool forming as the crimson red blood fell from its broken vessels.

her fingers losen and the metal blade glint brightly at an angle. she drifts towards a blinding light.

the worst jail is the one without bars.

2007-08-08T02:38:00.000-07:00

todae is National Day eve... also one of the most boring days ever. well, i quarreled wif my Dad cuz i wanted to go out. my mum said "i don't think so" since prelims's rnd the corner. no doubt, i got a bit sad and pissed. i realli wanted to spend time wif my frenz... i've missed them. then my room was also messed up by my Dad; books cluttered on the floor, paper crumpled. tat onli aggravated my anger. boohoo for me.

so here i was listening to loud music, partly to vent my anger wifout hurtin anyone and before i punch a hole in the wall. after a while, i was better. unfortunately, i'm trouble's favourite buddy. my mum called, i didn't hear, dad called me out...u guessed it rite, i got a scolding. something lyk i shld noe my priorities and tat my mum said tat at her time, ppl started muggin for exams a month ago. oh, and i'm no longer able to go out.

Dad: you noe yr results are 'you-noe...' sigh... i mean, u see yr results... sigh...
Me: daddy, can u juz stop sayin 'you-noe...'? just say 'yr results suck' cuz i noe they are.

then guess wat??? in the end, he didn't wan me to be pissed for nt going out and end up 'daydreaming' while studyin. so he'd rather let me go out. seriously, after wat happened, u expect me to hav the mood?! and its nt lyk he's so forgiving. "oh dad, yeah! thanks for lettin me go! i'll study REALLY hard!" <<<< tat will never happen. NEVER. i'm no longer naive.

DON'T ACCUSE SOMEONE THEN TRY TO FORGIVE HIM TO TAKE AWAT THE GUILT. you're no saint, neither am i, so i dun act lyk one. i confess i hav my flaws, unlike you.

LET GO, let go

2007-08-06T01:15:00.000-07:00

i uploaded a video by Boys Like Girls!!! its realli nice. check out the chords and the vocals. apparently, it is quite laggy. but pls wait... i realli wan u guys to hear it. its touchin and sweet lor. martin and paul are so CUTE!!!

skool's the same same things. today, i spent quality time wif my dad over a roast duck lunch. so FULL... lol. today my partner did smth stupid again... its daily thing but today was extremely funny. she pronounced secretary as "suckertary". as lame as it sounds, i laughed... realli LOUD! hehe...

Boys Like Girls - Let Go Cover

2007-08-06T01:07:00.001-07:00

This song realli rocks. Do give it a listen... =]

to sacrifice the kind FOR THE BETTER???

2007-08-01T01:35:00.000-07:00

wazzup guys~ u guys heard of the korean killings? [summary: 21 korean evagelists enter afghanistan for humanitarian aid. bunch of terrorists kidnap them, and made demands to the government to release 9 of their prisoners if not theu will kill the koreans. pastor and another guy was killed cuz the government did nt agree to the request. now, they gonna kill the remaining.] anyway, i got this info from google news la. the government can't release the prisoner if nt the terrorist will start to demand more.

my sympathy goes all out to the koreans. i mean the terrorist are so EVIL!!! damn those ppl to hell... thing is, nobody can help them cuz they dunno where the hell they are being held at and the terrorists look lyk civilians. wat the hell rite??? i think all the americans and everyone else shld juz leave Afghanistan alone since they are so determined to self-destruct; let nature takes its course.

you noe they say sacrifice for the better good of mankind??? in this case, i think too many ppl hav been sacrificed. its nt worth it for all the good ppl we've lost. God bless their souls, pls. amen. i'm sure heaven is a much better place for them.

i'm a FAILURE

2007-07-27T05:35:00.000-07:00

wazzUp... i'm crazy over the song Thunder by Boys Like Girls now.... realli love them now. =] today i went Cartel with jp and jk. i ate bread and butter and choc moo moo and soup and bread and butter. LOL. it was great to spend quality time wif damn, realli miss the jokes and stuff lor.

super sad todae. i failed maths again... i'm sick of me, SICK and TIRED of me.

super stressed todae... drowning again, just lyk yesterday and the day before...

super pissed today. i got scolded again... sweared again...

stoned HEART

2007-07-22T00:48:00.000-07:00

heylo... this is gonna be a depressing post. juz a warning to all bubbly springy visitors before u start to be emo lyk me. today was a boring day though it was a weekend. the 6-week countdown to prelims started le... it was studyin for most of the time as my youth ticked-tocked away. thing is, i couldn't get a single thing inside. i was so heavy hearted. the feeling in yr gut when sumthings going wrong. there's a chinese idiom describin the heart weighin lyk a ton. tat's how i'm feeling now. so yea... somehow salt water squeezed out of my eye lids. how i noe? i tasted it...

i was quite pissed wif my sis abt her bossy attitude to me usin the com, then i had to study again. i guess all these things equals PRESSURE? lyk everything's gonna fall apart. u think its juz small petty stuff... tat's when i start thinkin abt prelims and O's. the troubles start tumbling down lyk potatoes in a sack. finally, i got to use the com then my sis became emo... tat made me feel oh-so-guilty abt my anger to her. i think i hav a perverted conscience.

my mum juz shrugged and sorta giv me tat DO-WATEVA-U-WAN look.... i dun find usin 1h30mins of com a lot. its nt everyday either. i think its justifiable as R&R... apparently, its considered excessive to my mum. i wonder why my sis can use for 3 hrs and nt kana anything. izzit cuz i use com for 100%music and use it for 60%studies and 40%msn???

sian

2007-07-16T04:12:00.000-07:00

todae juz had chinese listening... quite difficult cuz its lyk u realli muz think, not just use yr sense of hearing. i'm reading a book called Dearly Devoted Dexter. IT ROCKS!!! i mean it... awww... dexter is so cute... he's a serial killer tat kills baddie serial killers tat deserve it! yea... 3 cheers for the Dark Avenger!

mum's restricting my use on the com... so u'll see me postin less often then i alreadi am. i apologize. i'll try my best to share my 'life" here while i still hav one... prelims are cmg in 6 weeks, not a lot of time, but i guess many of us are still slackin. time to start muggin again!!! lyk we ever stopped studyin. learning is fun, but studyin is lyk a life-time affair, so is homework. sian... life is mundane even for YOUR HIGHNESS. i'm nt spared from the boring papers of everyday work.

i'm worried for a fren who's veri sad these days. i guess he's lonely and probably think i dun wan him arnd... i realli wanna keep him close but he's gotta learn to trust his friends, not onli me. but as always, i wanna be there if he needs me.

autobots TRANSFORM!!!

2007-07-09T01:49:00.000-07:00

ppl, u hav juz gotta love TRANSFORMERS!!! the movie rocked big-time!!! i was angry, sad and happy all at the same time... of cuz, i lyk Bumblebee. but i lyk tat medic tat transform to an emergency rescue truck. SUPER UBER COOl!!! u guys muz go catch it... MUST!

thanks and love to everyone out there tat gave me love. i realli LOVE U GUYS!!! tat's why i say frenz are God's way of apologizing for parents... so true =) anyway, i'm fine now, thanks to u!

OH MI GOSH!!! i totally screwed up chinese oral. boohoo... argh. i think there are neon lights on my forehead spelling: ANG MOH. i was lyk "er...." and makin wierd faces. so much for being a chinese...

the ones you love can HURT you the most

2007-07-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

i'm angry. i'm sad. i'm confused. i'm disappointed. You didn't need to say those things or it couldn't hav been any harsher. i got an email before that, when u almost broke everything i held in u. u said i'm a smart mouth, a girl who doesn't noe her priorties, one that has too much freedom and abuses it. i'm NOT lyk tat!!! i try not to hurt anyone wif my words. i love my parents too much to hurt them by throwing my future away. yes, i'm on the verge of crying lyk i did the last time u said the same words. this time, u broke everything i held and had in u. watever u did in the past, i appreciate but no one is gonna say i'm gonna be in ITE! i will never work as a stripper bunny in frkin lacy shit in the upcmg IR or a cashier lyk u said! NO, i will not stoop so low. how dare u suggest tat in my FACE! i'm insulted and humiliated. Trust me, i've been reminded many times of my bad results and failures. nth comes close to wat u said! i'm nt always on the com, PSP or any other demonic distractions u think had me possesed. i guess i can thank u for opening my eyes of how much faith u hav in me and of my future. guess wat, having bad results doesn't make me a villian or the rebel u make implied! there! i've willed those damn bloody tears back for my sake. there's a limit to using reality as a motivation but this has gone beyond reality, this is HELL. i'm sorry if being me makes me a LOSER!

BORING life, BORING school.

2007-07-01T19:25:00.000-07:00

heylo guys~ i'm utterly bored and sick of my life. knowing tat for another lyk 5 months of my life, i would be muggging lyk hell is nt veri much to look forward to. i can hardly wait for the holi's to come. i'm muz be freakin lazy to want to slack 1st... but as a teenager, i tink i'm suppose to behave lyk tat. i dunno who i'm gonna survive this period o major STRESS and pressure??? maybe i'll start poppin out wif acne! or i'll become more emo! or i'll slit my wrists! so much for stress relief... school counsellors must come up wif more original ideas...

i got a new MCR tee!!!!!!!! yippeee me!!! i wanted to buy more le... the uncle got 30 seconds to mars but Anberlin's was sold out. hmmm... i'm gonna save money and buy me someMORE!

VIVO...and f4

2007-06-22T22:54:00.000-07:00

heylo~~ i went vivo on wed wif my fantastic 5! rach couldn't come cuz she wanna study. so hardworkin...(unlike me). let's see, jk bought a boardshorts tat all of us lyked in Topmen. i also bought a PINK NEON BELT!!! yippee me! good taste sia... LOL. we walked, shopped and watched movie. FANTASTIC 4 kinda rocks la... the show was nt to draggy but the plot could hav been better. the SILVER SURFER is so shuai. he actually a good guy in the show, its juz tat his world feeds on energy...(awww...) he helped revived Sue storm aka jessica alba! (awww...)

on friday, i had a bio test. before tat, i meet bryan and rachel... bryan was sooo DEAD cuz he neva do any homework to pass up. LOL. so i came to his rescue. actually, i onli tried to convince him nt to pon bio. then as usual... we talked abt GOD. it was more of a debate. =]

new JUNKIE bag!!!

2007-06-11T03:23:00.000-07:00

hey hey~ i'm happy abt one thing. i got a new purple bag!!! and this time, its nt unisex, onli meant for girls. but its dark purple, junkie looking, crumpled and everything. anyway, ITS LOOKS AWESOME! hahax, my mum was in a good mood and my sis and all of us got a new bag. i tink mine is the FUNKiest! duh...

my dad keeps naggin at me abt my studies. he said my results are fuked up la. i noe tat. (duh.) haix, i tink... nonono, i noe i'm academically STUPID. (my EQ is high ok!) i cnt make my parents happy wif anything. i dunno if they are ever proud at anything. my inclination to rock music seems more lyk a curse to them. my ability to pick up lyrics of songs and knowledge to tv shows lyk Desperate Housewives and music is lyk a frkin damnation to hell... so much for support.

i can onli go out once in the june holi's and i intend to spend tat one day well. my mum's puttin a chokehold to my freedom. sigh... the life of a s'porean sec 4 teenager is pathetically PATHETIC. i send my condolences and heartfelt sympathies to my music, pleasure and relaxation. RIP. sob.

no BREAK!!! boo-hoo

2007-06-08T07:10:00.000-07:00

i'm blogging due to popular demand... hahax. its nt lyk i'm famous. anyway, lot'sa stuff happened, mostly bad. i got my results, THEY SUCK! i failed two. hmmm, shld i change my blog skin??? i looked for 2hrs and still cnt find anything so cute as this one! i shld definitely change my song asap... gettin to it soon.

mum's pissed, dad's pissed and nagging, aunt's pissed too. i got a bad day this week cuz i sorta got a bad scolding from my aunt. it realli strained the whole relationship for me. but anyway, she apologized, yada yada... i'm an ass, i noe tat. but i dun lyk ppl to insult me cuz of the music i listen too. and i'm nt tryin to make myself into anything wif the music i listen too. argh... i neva take my music for granted, NEVER! i'm kinda moody then cuz sumbody threatened to take away my music. u might as well juz slit my frkin neck la.

i went to Mac for breakfast for 3 days consecutively... wa siao man! i ate sausage macmuffin w/egg for the 1st 2 days and HOTCAKES + sausage for the last. damn yummy! i love MILO too! chocolatey taste... mmmm... i lyk Ruffles too! esp: CHEDDAR AND SOUR CREAM! i'm so glad they use the healthier sunflower oil. so eatin chips has less guilt =]

CHEERS TO TEARS.

2007-05-29T18:57:00.000-07:00

hey hey~ sum1 reminded me tat i haven't blog in a while. well, my parents dun allow me to spend too much time on the com for lyk 2HOURS is the most. anyway, lot'sa stuff has happened. good and bad... mostly bad, i tink.

firstly, i FLUNKED the mid-years wif 2 failures and many bare passes. my parents are obviously pissed and disappointed for my nt puttin in my best... got scolded, lectured, nagged etc. they are tryin to convince me to study hard wif all the well known verbal 'encouragement"methods parents commonly use. anyway, cried, wiped, cried, wiped, bathed, but i'm never gonna forget those tears. they've opened doors for me, esp in my family.

secondly, i wanna tell everyone to nt be ashamed of cryin or feel any worse because of yr falling tears. tears are a REACTION and its nt solely instilled in girls ONLY. u can feel otherwise despite yr tears. they dun determine yr spirit or feelings. thumbs up to all TEARS!

lastly, i LOVE MY FRIENDS!!! this is dedicated to all my frenz. u guys mean SO MUCH to me! i'd die wifout u all... three cheers to all my frenz!!! luv u guys!!!

AMATHS outrage!!!

2007-05-08T19:45:00.000-07:00

its another stupid day in this world... todae's Amaths paper was a killer. even a miracle cannot save me or everyone else. the teachers are juz out to slit our throats and let us bleed till o'levels. i wonder, we always here of noble parents who accept their disabled children's disabilities. why can't my parents accept tat i juz suck at maths and probably everything else? i noe the mathematical side of my brain is obviously underdeveloped or immature, but puh-please! gimme break? i've got wits but maybe not the smarts... i gotta admit i've got flaws. who doesn't?

dad's been freakin pissed at the fax machine cuz it can't receive faxes from some country. he keeps naggin at the whole family and its irritating me lyk hell. i giv him credit for doing the laundry and cleaning but it doesn't mean he can juz rant on and on...( and on...) i finally noe how my twin feels. it sucks... x.x mum's sick, hope she gets well. sis's stressed as usual. And my family is once again normal...

yea! both me and jackson luv ANBERLIN. they rock! christian rock neva sounded so good! my son takes after his witty mummy!

no-WAY-le

2007-04-27T01:55:00.000-07:00

hey guys~ mikey is officially married and MCR's gettin him replaced by another bassist temperorily. i think i hav to get over him le, haix, move on to another cute guy... i'm thinkin P!ATD's lead singer???brendon urie... but its doesn't stick la. Mrs.Way sounds way nicer than Mrs.Urie. dortx.

These days, i haven't been spendin time wif justin they all... hmmm, i noe tat. cuz everytime jackson tell me to go lunch, i also cnt go. plans hav alreadi been made to go wif my other frenz. my fault yea... actually, i hav fun wif both grp of frenz! =) i juz gotta learn how to manage my time.

edmund tan; this is for u:: "i pray tat edmund's poor heart will heal. although he did say mean stuff, i hope God will not turn him nto a monk but let him repent his mistakes. after all, he is juz a victim of love." if there was a plaster tat could heal a heart, i would rip his heart and stick it there ( i would do it to many other broken hearts too). then again, i might get another to paste over his mouth cuz he talks too much.

wAt's GoinG On?

2007-04-23T01:31:00.000-07:00

heylo~ todae was SIAN cuz i gotta go to skool till lyk 2.30. haix... english is still boring me to death. and ms.chin didn't do any better by giving me attitude. its lyk i ask her question and i get : dunno le... TUPID! argh. exams are cmg and i haven't started muggin. damn, i'm realli a slacker. shit*

last week, we trashed the teachers in a Captain's ball game. 15-31!!! we won! :D lol, but they were g8 too. we had to realli work for it...

Damn, my dad's naggin abt me usin the com AGAIN! its always me, juz cuz i use it for relaxation. he said:" wa, maryse, usin the computer ar? next week hav exams rite? can it get u a distinction?" then he walk away and repeats the word "distinction" again! RAHH... i need a freakin neck dummy to strangle...

lastly, i think the Virginia Tech Killings are realli sad, 32 ppl died... i wanna express my condolences and sympathy to their loved ones. May they rest in God's embrace...

SHUT UP alreadi!

2007-04-13T04:55:00.000-07:00

heylo!!! if u hav been usin yr sense of hearing, u would hav noticed tat i changed my blog song unless yr com is a laggin dino or u're deaf. i luv this new song... =) check out the lyrics! i noe the band name's a little wierd but its nt the appearance, its the substance.

"All The Same"
I dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare to fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do

I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here

[Chorus]Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
Suddenly
But I have the skill, yeah.
I have the will, to breathe you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am

I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here

[chorus]
Wrong or Right
Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same
In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same

[chorus]

Many teachers hav been complain abt my class, actually all the teachers. they say we're rude and passive. RUDE??? wat kind of teacher says her class is pathetic twice??? which teacher teases and demoralises her students???

yay! jackson lend my G.d Charlotte's album!!! thankew son! so many sports this week! leg pain, arm pain, butt pain... i'm pampering myself wif nice cup of mocha latte ICED. mmm...

Peace!

2007-04-07T21:47:00.000-07:00

ello~ i'm so happy!!! the peace talks went well and everyone settle their issues le... at the pasar malam, my head was whacked by sharon cuz of some tupid old car trick. then Jp was laughin, hmph! hmmm, but dunno why after tat jackson become angry. i ask him wat happen also kana bitten. why everytime he angry always dun tell us wat happen??? and it seems lyk a sin to worry for him... anyway, joanna and i bought a touch-bubbles bottle. hahax, play at mrt station there. so fun!!! the bubbles can touch de but it will deflate la...

9.30 le but my parents haven't called so i thot i shld auto go home le... after all, i onli told them i going out for dinner. sms-ed mummy i going home then when i reach the bus stop, daddy and mummy were waitin for me le... lol, i was a bit touched la. i mean even if they were overprotective, it was understandable. mummy said they haven't call they wanna test when i will auto come home. later, i was playin bubbles wif mummy at the poolside... i realised tat mummy dunno how to blow!!! hahax, the bubbles i blew flew over to the other side where my dad and his frenz were eating. hahax, daddy told me to stop blowing =)

SPINELLI tuna and egg

2007-03-30T04:35:00.000-07:00

sup guys!!! hmmm, todae i went SPH again. sian lor... suppose to be interview this Megan girl from Home Run but she's so soft spoken, cnt realli hear wat she say. she's 14 this year and trust me, she's grown from the small little girl u saw in Home Run. then we went up to eat Spinelli sandwiches. mine. a tuna egg basic sandwich, was $2.40. for the size and the taste. it was worthwhile!!! it was toasted and egg york and the tuna was YUMMY! then... tupid bryan toh muz tempt me wif his caramel latte by lettin me hav a sip. too bad, i can't spend another $4 for a latte. =( i so needed caffine...

my maths veri KNS. both A and E... haix, sian. can sae my tuition also nt realli helpin. i noe its mostly my fault. todae i almost burst Sherlene's blood vessels thanks to my tupid questions. =D

yea! recently, xiao bai lian called me!!! he said he saw me on the papers... so long neva talk le, kinda miss him and his tupid smile. hahax... i think he's still bai bai de =)

too TOUGH for TAF

2007-03-25T00:19:00.000-07:00

hey guys~ if u happen to see me somewhere lyk a paper, yup, tat's me... [ppl who haven seen anything, pls stay tat way.] i'm not enjoyin the "popularity". anyway, i hope jimmy thong reads the article. and btw, i do eat supper but my point it tat FAT is not equals to unFIT. i can still run and play well hor. BH, the pic is so damn big...[damn, i look fat in it. duh, i'm in TAF.] argh, they edit until my account is not so accurate as wat i said. i told them abt a teacher(cm sq.) who teased a fellow classmate but its didn't appear in the article. why??? i think partly is tat they dun wan to giv the skool a bad reputation. wateva la... everyone in my class noes abt it.

i'm so glad sum1 defended the image "Emo' in the forum. cuz MCR seriously doesn't lyk fans to slice themselves. Those "slicers" realli pitiful, cuz its lyk they hav no output for negative feeling like exercise or yoga... i wonder if they hav lives... hmmm. MCR is soooo not sucidal... mikey can't die!!!

i started listening to The Fold. Gravity and The Title are tracks tat currently rock my mp3. i also started listening to chinese songs! [applause!!!] especially Angela Zhang Shao Han, she's nice. =) gtg! bbz!

Falcon's Soar!!!

2007-03-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

Todae, Falcon's stole the 1st and 2nd place in captain's ball sec4 level games. It was all competitive games, great team spirit and FANTASTIC fun!!! woOt... everyone in my team was lyk scared of the sec 5 team, dunno why also. [ at least, i dunno cuz i neva see them play b4]

i'm lookin for nice new fresh songs, so feel free to list yr suggestions =)

i hate PHYSICAL HEATLTH CLUB!!! damn Thong, damn yr club, damn yr lame rounds we hav to run, damn yr lame climb-the-stairs routines. i'm so not motivated to run la... its so humiliating to walk out from the hall or parade sq. Slimmies better not take yr figure and weight for granted. if i realli cant lose weight, i'll hire one of those macho fitness-pills-eating-work-out-24/7 at california fitness guys to get me a 6-pack. =D

eyes OPEN

2007-03-12T18:52:00.000-07:00

good morning~ yesterday was a sad nite. i quarrelled wif a veri close fren, and couldn't get forgivness for my mistakes and The End. He hung up... Onli one person can make tears fall even if i willed it back, and it happened not once but twice. Frenz Forever, i hope...

Jp asked me go out but in the end i neva go too. sorri Jp, ben and sam!!! bloody hell, its all my fault.

yesterday was fun too! jackson's mummy kway teow rox! i absolutely luuuvvv kway teow and its fried with fish cake too! man, i miss home-cooked food... though i would hav prefered it wif more salt, i told myself it was a healthier choice.

aiya, at PTM. ms Chew told my mummy i was gr8 at "multi-tasking" meaning i read in her class adn listen at the same time. she also hinted tat i hav a sharp tongue. actually, me and ms. chew share a ahem...cough* close relationship tat involves rebuttal and sarcasm. =D

its ok to be ANG MOH!!!

2007-03-08T04:26:00.000-08:00

wat's up guys!!!todae's chinese oral, i passed but nt veri well i think. but i pass veri happy le. as u shld noe, i am a self-confessed-totally-natural-ang-moh-speaker so even when i try veri hard to pronounce all the chinese words, it sounds wierd. for tat, tupid rebecca calls me a "potato", dun ask me how's tat linked, she's a bimbo, go figure...

tmrw's PTM, wa, super worried. i hope mummy doesn't talk to ms Chew. i've been sleepin in her lesson and todae i set my record of sleepin 15mins solid in her lesson. Cm.sq+wind+boring compre=Zzzz... get it???

FYI, chelsa's my 'bear' owner... sorta... but its nt lyk i listen to her la but she listens to me =) apparently, she finds me veri huggable and when she comes over to hug me, i hav to remind others arnd me tat i am nt a lessie! sherlene has made the class board into some WuZun fan board wif his pics and i can't destroy it (i would if i could) cuz at least another 5 girls in class lyk him too... damn!

holi's HOLI's

2007-03-06T22:49:00.000-08:00

hey guys~ i hope my blog is nice to you... =) i wish JP and sharon good luck in the auditions. jia you! sing lyk a nightingale! i thinkin of droppin A maths but do the o's. at least i can try to get lyk a C. i mean i can learn in my own pace and time cuz i'm nt learning in Mrs nathan's lesson anyway. i got quite bad results this term. the onli good thing is tat i got A2 for english but its the onli A. if i count my L1 R5, i got 20... =(

damn, smth wrong wif my com. i cnt hear music from ares and i cnt convert my vids to my PSP. tupid! haix, i skipped badminton training todae cuz they nt usin the hall and are going to do physical exercise. x.x

i'm booked on Monday cuz me, yiting, darren etc are gonna celebrate Tai Kengs's birthday. hmmm, i've got Amaths on wed from 9-11am. so jk, jp, sy, jy, rc wanna go out???

its been A LONG TIME!

2007-03-02T05:42:00.000-08:00

hi guys~ its been a damn long time since i ever came to my blog. i gave up cuz there was lyk so little taggies, but i appreciate every comment =) i've changed my whole blog and i hope its better. well, for the update:
-i failed my A maths test so i think i hav to drop. [bad news]
-i'm no longer tat obessed with Twilight and New Moon. (edward cullen and bella swan)
- i'm no longer tat pressurized cuz i realise i've got gr8 frenz to help me along =)

Overall, major changes; some good, some bad but tat's life. i think i juz gotta trust God more and trust me, i've been tryin hard. hmmm, my personal no changes; still single and NOT desperate! i'm juz glad to hav gr8 frenz in class and in school. i'm still in badminton, still fat, still intellactually advanced and still witty! (self-praise does boost yr morale) so here's a gr8 big thank you to everyone and anyone tat has contributed happiness to me!

one thing hasn't change. i still dislike CMM (chew mui mui). i would type cm.square if i could but this program cnt la. she onli made me dislike her more. i won't say i hate her cuz tat would be realli bad... i juz hope she doesn't giv me more reasons to start hatin her. x.x

Drown me in PRESSURE...

2007-01-11T16:10:00.000-08:00

i'm veri stressed these days. the o's and the upcmg Amaths test is a hurdle for me... i dunno if i cam make it. wifout A maths, my choices would be limited and i cnt afford to fail it. my parents would be so pissed if i failed... i am so pressured now, but i can't cry, not in front of them. i feel hopeless and despaired.

recently, i fell in love with a book called Twilight. it is abt a vampire (edward) and a girl(bella) who are both deeply in love with each other. it is romance but its not those bimbo type. i mean its not puppy love or sexually based relationship. their's is realli deep and full of understandin towards each other. it is so touching tat i feel for them and i put myself so deep tat i'm addicted to it. many thanx to the gr8 author, stephenie meyer. i think i'm gonna buy the book...

sometimex, i wish a bite could relieve of my life and all its sorrows. let me dead for a while... death can be a relief...

my music is G.O.N.E!!!

2007-01-06T23:08:00.000-08:00

argh, after my com was sent to fixed due to a damaged drive, all my songs are gone... i'm so musically deprived. suddenly, i'm nt used to seein the com in its defaults and lame settings. after like an hour of resetting and altering, it looks more lyk my account before.

maths is so difficult. the diagnostic test is lyk dunno when... and nathan doesn't hav a clue when it is too. my tuition teacher's also quite frustrated tat i always forget wat he teaches. i noe i'm slow and the fact tat i'm in a class full of maths pros is not helpin my confidence too, its lyk everyone else is better than me in every other way. and tat... sucks...

my dad lyk every other parent, finds it hard to accept tat i'm slow in maths. i can't stand it smtimex when he swears or curses abt my studies. if this goes on, i might self-enroll myself into an asylum or HIcare...

Santa is a big fat man who loves Oreo and milk!

2006-12-23T21:54:00.000-08:00

yesterday, i went to my aunt's hse for x'mas family gathering. hahax, i had the turkey drumstick thanks to the reservation i made since nov. LOL. the turkey was gr8! the ham and everything else was delicious too... i had such a gr8 time spendin time with my family! as for presents, i got a nike shoe bag, high skool musical vcd, glittery pink laces and a hong bao! yea...

anyway, i'm gonna change my song to Lithium by Evanescence. love it!!!

find another punchin bag

2006-12-04T23:08:00.000-08:00

my sis juz totally pissed me off... she always clutters the computer area in her room. she assumes tat since its in her room, she can choose wateva time for me to stop usin the com. itsnot lky i dun wan it in my room. wat's more, when i clear the trash from the com table, she ask me to put it back. piss off! she's lyk an unreasonable ______. this is not sibling rivalry, but its obvious tat she is the unfair party here.

i was almost down wif a fever but luckily badminton helped me release the heat, so i'm better =)

back from busy HK

2006-11-30T20:16:00.000-08:00

i'm back from hk!!! aren't u guys glad??? alrite... anyway, i realli enjoyed this trip. we went to Disneyland, saw an amazing fireworks display! (its realli amazing...), sat on rides and took a pic wif mickey and minnie. Oo, and i bought mickey gloves!!! next we went to Ocean Park. it was nice too, though not as perfect as Disneyland. i sat on Hk's longest roller coaster wif my dad, sis and uncle... it was fun!!! the whole trip also had major shoppin and my leg is so sore.its even worse then doin footwork in training la... overall, the trip rocked!

my cousin, Ernest, realli veri cute. he would come and hold my hand instead of his papa's. hahax... but he can be such a rascal! lyk he woke up my mum when she was sleepin in the bus to ask: " are u sleepin?". yet, he is smart, seriously. he can name more animals then i can at his age, and he can areadi tell tat a whale is a mammal. he's lyk: " tat's the ____robin! tat's the spotted____fish" he's onli in K1!(btw, i put "___" cuz i also dunno the animal.)

oh well, i think tat's enuf details of my trip... gotta go training le. bbz!

I no longer suck in bowlin!

2006-11-23T00:38:00.000-08:00

todae i went bowlin wif frenz and seniors from badminton as a farewell thingy. we went to kovan superbowl. we played the first round wif glen, Jp, georgina, darren etc. Darren is realli good and generally accurate. glen has this wierd style of spnning the ball, georgina's had gr8 strokes and Jp was also veri pro... i got onli lyk 50+. sucky rite? i was the worse. 2nd round, i got 131! yea...(i'm tryin to be realli humble here but as a once total bowlin noob, i'm realli happy.) but the 100+ was onli due to the 2 consecutive strikes, i had. anyway, i think i gonna lose the skill again cuz i dun play tat often.

tmrw hav training again... yea! lol. but limbs quite sore... x.x

smtimex, i'm realli thankful for gr8 frenz lyk Jp, Jk and Jy etc... although we may argue smtimex, we noe tat the frenship has many other good experiences tat can make up for our differences. they can realli make me veri happy =) i dunno wat i'd do wifout them... so i hope we would neva separate, eva. i wanna hold on to you guys 4eva!

K-fed and Britney...

2006-11-21T19:25:00.000-08:00

hi ppl~ well, its official. britney has ditched kfed. i see this as an attempt to protect her child and get her life back. g.d job! after all, he was partyin A LOT!!! kfed's new rap/hip hop/ crap album onli sold 7000+ copies worldwide... tat is pathetic compared to my chemical romance's The Black Parade. all the best to kfed...u hav some of my sympathy.

the Plain White T's were featured on TRL. yea! they're single Hate(i really don't like you) is gonna be an upcmg hit. nice... i discoved this band on a website lyk 2 weeks b4 and i'm so happy they finally hav the chance to shine.

enuf abt music... i'm going for training todae and i twisted my ankle for the second time since june. i dun think i'm going to visit a physician. its gonna be damn pain. lol... i'm nt very brave.

Cnt w8 to go to Hk, then can shop! can get stuff for my frenz too =) eat dim sum etc... so cool. but its onli 5 days which is quite short. i'm leavin this sunday, and takin cathay pacific plane, counter 8, 10.10 plane. hahax. tat's a lot of info. x.x

holiday??? my foot...

2006-11-20T19:33:00.002-08:00

hi guys> i'm so happy ppl actually tag on my blog... cuz i had few comments in my msn space. wat e heck anyway, u guys juz tag here and i'll be super grateful.=)

its holidae and there's plenty of HW... i'm tryin to finish A maths revision but veri difficult. x.x tat's nt an excuse... for a weak student lyk me, normal q's can be a brain boggle. algebra...log...indices... SOS!!!

the class BBQ realli rox...muz giv credit to ppl lyk JP, JO and Oliver =) we went cycling at lyk 3am wif JK and carson too. neva had so much fun!! we muz do it again, ppl! maybe after o's... hahax.

Daily Dose Of Anger

2006-11-10T21:34:00.000-08:00

ello+ sigh... as u can see from my title of this post, its all abt the anger i face and hav to cope wif everyday single day. i recieve my daily dose of anger from my parents mainly. cuz everi since my maid left, a lot of the chores was dependant on the family. my dad always nags at me and scolds me for neglectin the dust and grime in the hse. maybe i'm not auto or wat, but at least, i try. he oughtta giv me credit for tat. sometimes when my parents are stressed abt work, they also put in out on me and my sis. its nt realli their fault la, but i think there are better options to vent their anger.

i'm going to joshua's comfirmation later and i'm going alone. jackson suppose to go but thanks to tat freakin open house, he cnt make it. the weather now is rainy, so i think the open hse will be so soggy and wet. hahax. =p

there's freakin a lot of homework! damn... how to cope? brain pain...

Cmg tO an END

2006-11-08T22:58:00.000-08:00

hi guys~ its alreadi November... thinkin back, this year was realli difficult. i had to make new frenz in class and i had to cope with the many subjects. haix... realli difficult to cope with A maths. i'm so dead lor. todae juz had a sort of farewell party for Mr Tan. haix, i'm realli gonna miz him. he's been an encouragin figure in my Amaths history, but i realli disppoint him by failin the whole year... Mr Anba also no longer teachin us. sad... he's realli humourous and fun. oh well, also cnt do anything abt it.

another sad thing is tat Mikey is engaged to a woman. so sad... he's so cute and sensitive lor. hahax. MCR sang on MTV last nite and it was a live version. juz nice they sang Cancer. tat song realli rocks and its realli sad and true at the same time.

giddyUP!

2006-11-05T23:36:00.000-08:00

hi guys... i'm so happy ppl are actually lookin at my blog. =) even if its onli 2 ppl till now la. hahax, but i shld be happy for the small things in life. thanx guys...

i hav MCR webbie on my links. i wanted to add one of their songs onto my blog but the quality wasn't tat g.d. u guys can juz fly to their web and listen to their music while bloggin. its juz a suggestion...

so scary lor. todae, rebecca shared her experience in the Grudge 2 movie... the story realli freaked me lor. omg, now i cnt stop thinkin abt it. x.x how??? the ghost realli freaky. long hair, pale white hands, long white dress etc. the perfect makeover for a total freakshow...

i finally found the 2nd book to the Lowmoor trilogy: the brass key. hahax, so happy. cuz i thot the book would neva arrive in Cheng San Library... mow, juz hav to wait for the other books i've been waitin for. sigh*

elEarn, HW and revision. siao ar!

2006-11-04T22:00:00.000-08:00

sup guys... i'm tryin my best to blog everyday. i'm doin elearn now. i juz started and there's 41 homework. tat is a huge amt!!! i thot elearn was an alternative and option if there is ever a crisis tat will affect our education, not another source for extra HW and torture! my life is ruled by MOE. how nice... why can't they lyk extend the sec 3 and 4 education to 3years? tat would definitely lessen the pressure for us, students. wat's more, too much pressure can cause a decline in intellectual intelligence and result in retardation...[tat is, to me la.]

Mareese???

2006-11-02T21:48:00.000-08:00

todae was quite eventful... firstly, Ms Chew MM almost made me a total fool thanks to her whacked way of pronouncing my name. luckily, my wit saved me from utter humiliation. she took lyk 3 mins of continuous repeating of my name to get it rite. even after tat, she still had to stutter to call me and said tat my name shld be spelled Mareese... [tat sounds lyk geese?] well, i snapped back sayin tat she's not my mum, so she doesn't choose it. x.x she is a living testimony tat not all english teachers pronounce all things rite.

this is my 1st blog, so guys dun blame me if i got anything wrong. yr guidance though, would be veri appropriate. anyway, gotta giv credit to yiting in helpin me in the process of gettin it rite =)

the 2uni'05 class BBQ's cmg up and i'm excited... i think we ought to be grateful for those who are planning cuz its realli complicated and stuff. someone though did smth realli bitchy but i'm gonna spare her the humiliation and embarassment by nt mentioning her name. i'm so kind... hahax. besides, i dun mind one less person eating the chicken wings! hmph!

SianZ

2006-10-30T22:30:00.000-08:00

today has been ok, i guess... my chinese teacher for Class D is so much more interestin then LCD. hahax. she say our class veri guai except for bryan tat is. he was pointed put by the teacher veri early and has been used as the many examples in the lesson. overall, the lesson was cool. tat's a g.d thing cuz for once, i dun feel sian in a Chinese lesson.

i also started to read a chinese mag cuz mr tan said it'll help improve my chinese. i mean the cover was goong, so i thot i'd try it out. no harm done... except the many words i dun recognize. i'm an Ang Moh, i confess. even my mum thinks so.

Speakin of her... She bought me the new My Chemical Romance. Sorry, gotta bold the MCr word cuz they rock! the cd's realli nice and i encourage y'all to buy it. its explicit content but there's onli 2 words inside so its not tat vulgur or wat. i'm now addicted to it +)

suCky results

2006-10-17T01:48:00.000-07:00

todae's been quite stressful... cuz i got back all my results. i didn't score too well, no A's. my parents expect so much more from me... i scared to tell them my results. they'll nag again nad my dad's gonna start makin my life miserable. its my fault, mybe i slacked too much in my exams but i put in effort.