Friday, July 27, 2007
wazzUp... i'm crazy over the song Thunder by Boys Like Girls now.... realli love them now. =] today i went Cartel with jp and jk. i ate bread and butter and choc moo moo and soup and bread and butter. LOL. it was great to spend quality time wif damn, realli miss the jokes and stuff lor.super sad todae. i failed maths again... i'm sick of me, SICK and TIRED of me.
super stressed todae... drowning again, just lyk yesterday and the day before...
super pissed today. i got scolded again... sweared again...
Sunday, July 22, 2007
heylo... this is gonna be a depressing post. juz a warning to all bubbly springy visitors before u start to be emo lyk me. today was a boring day though it was a weekend. the 6-week countdown to prelims started le... it was studyin for most of the time as my youth ticked-tocked away. thing is, i couldn't get a single thing inside. i was so heavy hearted. the feeling in yr gut when sumthings going wrong. there's a chinese idiom describin the heart weighin lyk a ton. tat's how i'm feeling now. so yea... somehow salt water squeezed out of my eye lids. how i noe? i tasted it...i was quite pissed wif my sis abt her bossy attitude to me usin the com, then i had to study again. i guess all these things equals PRESSURE? lyk everything's gonna fall apart. u think its juz small petty stuff... tat's when i start thinkin abt prelims and O's. the troubles start tumbling down lyk potatoes in a sack. finally, i got to use the com then my sis became emo... tat made me feel oh-so-guilty abt my anger to her. i think i hav a perverted conscience.
my mum juz shrugged and sorta giv me tat DO-WATEVA-U-WAN look.... i dun find usin 1h30mins of com a lot. its nt everyday either. i think its justifiable as R&R... apparently, its considered excessive to my mum. i wonder why my sis can use for 3 hrs and nt kana anything. izzit cuz i use com for 100%music and use it for 60%studies and 40%msn???
Monday, July 16, 2007
todae juz had chinese listening... quite difficult cuz its lyk u realli muz think, not just use yr sense of hearing. i'm reading a book called Dearly Devoted Dexter. IT ROCKS!!! i mean it... awww... dexter is so cute... he's a serial killer tat kills baddie serial killers tat deserve it! yea... 3 cheers for the Dark Avenger!mum's restricting my use on the com... so u'll see me postin less often then i alreadi am. i apologize. i'll try my best to share my 'life" here while i still hav one... prelims are cmg in 6 weeks, not a lot of time, but i guess many of us are still slackin. time to start muggin again!!! lyk we ever stopped studyin. learning is fun, but studyin is lyk a life-time affair, so is homework. sian... life is mundane even for YOUR HIGHNESS. i'm nt spared from the boring papers of everyday work.
i'm worried for a fren who's veri sad these days. i guess he's lonely and probably think i dun wan him arnd... i realli wanna keep him close but he's gotta learn to trust his friends, not onli me. but as always, i wanna be there if he needs me.
Monday, July 09, 2007
ppl, u hav juz gotta love TRANSFORMERS!!! the movie rocked big-time!!! i was angry, sad and happy all at the same time... of cuz, i lyk Bumblebee. but i lyk tat medic tat transform to an emergency rescue truck. SUPER UBER COOl!!! u guys muz go catch it... MUST!
thanks and love to everyone out there tat gave me love. i realli LOVE U GUYS!!! tat's why i say frenz are God's way of apologizing for parents... so true =) anyway, i'm fine now, thanks to u!
OH MI GOSH!!! i totally screwed up chinese oral. boohoo... argh. i think there are neon lights on my forehead spelling: ANG MOH. i was lyk "er...." and makin wierd faces. so much for being a chinese...
Thursday, July 05, 2007
i'm angry. i'm sad. i'm confused. i'm disappointed. You didn't need to say those things or it couldn't hav been any harsher. i got an email before that, when u almost broke everything i held in u. u said i'm a smart mouth, a girl who doesn't noe her priorties, one that has too much freedom and abuses it. i'm NOT lyk tat!!! i try not to hurt anyone wif my words. i love my parents too much to hurt them by throwing my future away. yes, i'm on the verge of crying lyk i did the last time u said the same words. this time, u broke everything i held and had in u. watever u did in the past, i appreciate but no one is gonna say i'm gonna be in ITE! i will never work as a stripper bunny in frkin lacy shit in the upcmg IR or a cashier lyk u said! NO, i will not stoop so low. how dare u suggest tat in my FACE! i'm insulted and humiliated. Trust me, i've been reminded many times of my bad results and failures. nth comes close to wat u said! i'm nt always on the com, PSP or any other demonic distractions u think had me possesed. i guess i can thank u for opening my eyes of how much faith u hav in me and of my future. guess wat, having bad results doesn't make me a villian or the rebel u make implied! there! i've willed those damn bloody tears back for my sake. there's a limit to using reality as a motivation but this has gone beyond reality, this is HELL. i'm sorry if being me makes me a LOSER!
Sunday, July 01, 2007
heylo guys~ i'm utterly bored and sick of my life. knowing tat for another lyk 5 months of my life, i would be muggging lyk hell is nt veri much to look forward to. i can hardly wait for the holi's to come. i'm muz be freakin lazy to want to slack 1st... but as a teenager, i tink i'm suppose to behave lyk tat. i dunno who i'm gonna survive this period o major STRESS and pressure??? maybe i'll start poppin out wif acne! or i'll become more emo! or i'll slit my wrists! so much for stress relief... school counsellors must come up wif more original ideas...i got a new MCR tee!!!!!!!! yippeee me!!! i wanted to buy more le... the uncle got 30 seconds to mars but Anberlin's was sold out. hmmm... i'm gonna save money and buy me someMORE!
